almost standerton

meow

a swelling of the heart

i have these urges sometimes where i just want to go and do something creative, something daring, something different. i'll be here, on this computer and find myself searching for things that inspire me. i'll be watching music videos that are so rich in colour and so lovely to see. i'll discover artists that i've never heard of before and honestly fall in love. a swelling of the heart. i just want to burst out and do something. anything.

and then i log off the computer only to make the short journey to my small, draining room. and on the walk back, there are screaming juniors and yelling matrons and the presence of everything that reminds me that i can't just break out and go do what  want to do. and i get a little sad and feel a little defeated and remind myself that one day i will be able to do all of these things that i so long to do.

and then i feel okay. so it's not so bad.

but i can't wait for the day when i can feel that freedom and live in those colours.

landscapes

landscape(demo) | florence + the machine

She can't see the landscape anymore

It's all painted in her grief

All of her history etched out at her feet

Now all of the landscape, it's just an empty place

Acres of longing, mountains of tenderness

Cause she's just like the weather, can't hold her together

Born from dark water, daughter of the rain and snow

Cause it's burning through the bloodline

It's cutting down the family tree

Growing in the landscape, darling, in between you and me

She wants the silence but fears the solitude

She wants to be alone and together with you

So she ran to the lighthouse, hoped that it would help her see

She saw that the lighthouse had been washed out to sea

Cause she's just like the weather, can't hold her together

Born from dark water, daughter of the rain and snow

Cause it's burning through the bloodline

It's cutting down the family tree

Growing in the landscape, darling, in between you and me

I wanna give you back the open sky

Give you back the open sea

Open up the ages, darling, for you to see

You put the gun into your mouth to bite

You pull it and spit out

Cause it's running in the family

Oh the rich and

Cause she's just like the weather, can't hold her together

Born from dark water, daughter of the rain and snow

Cause it's burning through the bloodline

It's cutting down the family tree

Growing in the landscape, darling, in between you and me

cake II

 

i believe that sometimes, things taste better than they look.....this applies to the end results of my baking :)